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(Source: doctorwhogifs)
((god, need to apply for jobs, write four columns (!) and edit a book, but giveafuck levels are dangerously low. Also need to reply to an email that is causing me anxiety. Halp?))
((Breathe? You can do it! Also check this out maybe? For good thoughts? But you can do it!))
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Braxiatel. Just dropped by for a chat, did you?
Dear followers, be nosey.
- 1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
- 2. You talked to an ex today, correct?
- 3. Have you taken someones virginity?
- 4. Is trust a big issue for you?
- 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
- 6. What are you excited for?
- 7. What happened tonight?
- 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
- 9. Is confidence cute?
- 10. What is the last beverage you had?
- 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
- 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
- 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
- 14. What are you going to spend money on next?
- 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
- 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
- 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
- 18. The last time you felt broken?
- 19. Have you had sex today?
- 20. Are you starting to realize anything?
- 21. Are you in a good mood?
- 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
- 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
- 24. What do you want right this second?
- 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
- 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
- 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
- 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
- 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
- 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
- 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
- 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
- 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
- 34. Listening to?
- 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
- 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
- 37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- 38. Who did you last call?
- 39. Who was the last person you danced with?
- 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
- 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
- 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
- 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
- 44. Do you tan in the nude?
- 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?
- 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
- 47. Who was the last person to call you?
- 48. Do you sing in the shower?
- 49. Do you dance in the car?
- 50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
- 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
- 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
- 53. Is Christmas stressful?
- 54. Ever eat a pierogi?
- 55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
- 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
- 57. Do you believe in ghosts?
- 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
- 59. Take a vitamin daily?
- 60. Wear slippers?
- 61. Wear a bath robe?
- 62. What do you wear to bed?
- 63. First concert?
- 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
- 65. Nike or Adidas?
- 66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
- 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
- 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
- 69. Ever take dance lessons?
- 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
- 71. Can you curl your tongue?
- 72. Ever won a spelling bee?
- 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
- 74. What is your favorite book?
- 75. Do you study better with or without music?
- 76. Regularly burn incense?
- 77. Ever been in love?
- 78. Who would you like to see in concert?
- 79. What was the last concert you saw?
- 80. Hot tea or cold tea?
- 81. Tea or coffee?
- 82. Favorite type of cookie?
- 83. Can you swim well?
- 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
- 85. Are you patient?
- 86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
- 87. Ever won a contest?
- 88. Ever have plastic surgery?
- 89. Which are better black or green olives?
- 90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
- 91. Best room for a fireplace?
- 92. Do you want to get married?
It is unfortunately easy to misplace the dashed thing.
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ooc
I try to keep personal stuff off this blog as much as possible, but few people read my ooc blog, and I kinda need some encouragement right now.
You’ve heard of writer’s block, yes? Well, at the moment, I’m having editor’s block. I’ve got a manuscript that was due on Saturday that I must hand in tomorrow, and I just can’t seem to get anywhere on it. Thankfully, it’s short, and my client is being very generous because I was ridiculously sick with my period last week and got behind on everything.
So. What’s the problem? I really screwed up another manuscript for this client a few weeks ago, and I’m kind of terrified I’m going to ass this one up, too. This one really needs to be flawless to win back my client’s full trust in me, and I just…don’t do very well in situations like this. In fact, these situations tend to aggravate my anxiety disorder to the point that I, uh, wake up because I’m too anxious to sleep and then just ignore the manuscript for four hours because fuck.
My therapist and my partner say that this sort of thinking is catastrophizing. But, well…here’s the thing. The situation as I see it is already pretty damn catastrophic. My rating on the freelance site I typically use to do work is pretty ass right now (in the low 4s when 5 is the highest and nearly everyone there has between 4.7 and 5), thanks to a jerkoff client back in January who couldn’t be fucked to tell me he was unhappy with my work until leaving a passive-aggressive review that ravaged my perfect rating. Another client also gave me a pretty lackluster rating recently too, despite me working myself into illness to meet a deadline. I cannot afford either emotionally or financially to piss off more clients right now, even though my health has been shit-tastic for the NINTH MONTH IN A ROW.
Why? The review in January was the final straw that pushed me into both my first episode of major clinical depression in two years and into adrenal exhaustion. During that time, I got almost no work thanks to being sick and my fucking rating, and we just can’t afford to have that happen again financially. I also really can’t deal with another mental meltdown. Fuck, I’ve just kicked my meds up to the point that they’re exhausting me, but my anxiety is now manageable for the first time in probably a year. I just…can that not unravel? At least not now?
So I really need to do this manuscript right, and to finish some other edits that I already made some mistakes on (thankfully my client’s not too angry about those, but she should be.) And then I really need to catch up on work this week. I can’t do any of that if I’m having my anxiety triggered left and right.
So…um. I guess I just need people to tell me that I can do this and not fuck it up, and that I haven’t fucked up my entire life? Honestly, not a lot has cheered me up since my life fell apart back in November. So just a few kind words would mean a lot to me.
I believe you can do it! It sounds terribly scary, and I know from anxiety, but I believe you can do it! I suppose that editing and writing don’t have a great deal to do with one another, but I can definitely say that you are an excellent writer/roleplayer and I very much enjoy the many threads we have been doing. And that you allow me to ramble on and on. And that you ramble back! Maybe that has something to do with editing, if you can look at a character and gauge what is consistent about them then you can see what is inconsistent in a manuscript?
The point is that I think you are good with words, and if your brain lets you you should feel good about yourself. Especially regarding asking for things. That is super big progress when you have an anxiety disorder. So in short go you! You look like you have been taking lots of steps in good directions, and you can take more!
